Not so wonderful today or tomorrow and the next

I might as well get this over with .............................................................. I had a miscarrage yesterday. My babies are gone. My heart feels like it's gone with them, but it will be back, it has to. Yesterday I was trying to look on the bright side of things, but today I just miss them and what they might have been.

If you don't have anything good to say........then shut your mouth!

I guess I'm just tired of being blamed because I'm having twins. I didn't think I could get pregnant without medical help let alone get pregnant with twins! I just think if Kris and I don't have a problem with it then neither should anyone else. I understand why my sister is upset - I was suppose to be my nephews daycare, and now she has to put him in daycare with someone she doesn't know. I understand that she would be upset. she hasn't told me that she's upset, but she told all this to my mom and my mom told me. I feel bad that I can't do that for her anymore, but like I said to my mom 'she didn't have kids so I could look after them' there are other reasons why she wanted kids. I know that might be a bit harsh, because I love my sister it's just that the negative comments don't help. There's nothing I can do to change my situation. If I had a choice I wouldn't ask for twins, but now that I have them I want to keep them. I love them. They are apart of me and Kris.

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Taxes are done!!!.......and other rants

I finally finished doing Kris taxes (not mine as I have no income). He gets $2000 back! Yeah!!!!! Manly because he claims me as a dependant. Oh well that money will help us when we move.
Some people are just insensitive. Someone said to me (I'm not going to say who) 'I just feel so sorry for cameron because no one is going to care about him anymore once the twins are born' - did you just seriously say that to me? This of course came from a person who doesn't have kids so has no clue about them. Just because you have another child doesn't mean you forget about the ones you already have! Jackass! As you can tell I wasn't very impressed. I'm scared shitless that the twins are going to overshadow Cameron, but I won't let happen. I'm not sure how that person grew up, but when I was growing up I never felt like one sibling was favored over the others.I have great parents, and they taught me well.

Today sucks

well I've had better days. If you want to know why my day has been crappy check out my baby blog.

lonely.......

I miss my husband! And it's only been two days! Oh well only two days left and I will see him. Today was a tiring day. Cameron fell asleep at 5:00pm last night. He was exusted and I couldn't keep him awake. so ok no prob, he of course wakes up at 3am wanting to play! Just great! After about an hour I was able to get him to lay down next to me. I wake up again at 7:45am to the phone ringing. It's my sister, I'm suppose to look after my nephew today for about 7 hrs. No prob i get out of bed and she gets there about 1/2 hr later. Cameron woke up at about 9 so at least I know he'll stay awake until 7:30 and this won't happen again! Well at least not tonight anyways.

3 more days until my ultrasound! I'm getting very excited!

So Kris went up to Kamloops saturday afternoon. The plan was that I was going to go with him, but then we realized that Kris's dad Roy will only be there until sunday. So I didn't think the trip was really worth it, and I wasn't sure if I had a ride back or not. Charlie didn't think his truck was big enough. Well there wouldn't be any room for any luggage. Ok not a big deal. I find out last night that Roy is there until wednesday! Thanks for letting us know! I could have got a ride back with Kris then on wednesday when he was coming home. Oh well. Roy made a comment to Charlie that he should take over being Cameron's grandpa because he see's him more. That's not our fault. Roy's on 2 weeks vacation right now and didn't even think about coming down to see Cameron. Sorry I just needed to vent. I like Kris's dad, it's just that this irritated me a bit.

No more Pink!

I decided that I was getting sick of seeing the colour pink. Well at least on my blog that is. I still like wearing pink. So it seems I'm getting another cold again WHICH SUCKS! We are suppose to be going up to kamloops this weekend. Kris might have to work on saturday, so if he does then he will go up to kamloops alone after work on saturday so he can spend it with the guys. I was only planning on staying until sunday, so if Kris has to work saturday then I'm not going to bother to come up. I was going to stay up there the entire time Kris was going to be there (he has to work up in Kamloops Mon-Wed) but if he by chance has to work thursday too then I have to drive back by myself that morning ( I don't like driving in the snow) as I have to be at the ultrasound that day (it's $100 to cancel and I don't want to wait another 2 weeks to get another one).

Rain, rain go away
I want to go outside today.

Man I'm sick of being inside all the time. I just want the weather to be nice. I miss summer I want it back now! Well I best go get the laundry and dishes done now so I don't have to do it later.